Saturday, December 11, 2010

Wow, almost a year I have not add any new blog. Just don wan let it empty for the whole year, decided to write something today. Hehe..

One more week to go and my form 6 life is officially finish. I feel form6 is more 'siao' compared to the lower form.Not i mean that when in lower form has nothing memorable just dis 2 years r quite unexpected. Fun, crazy, 'sampat' ... i ll rmb every single on of them clearly, including those i never talk before. hehe

It's raining again. Like raining a lot. Although some people think raining means dull but i stil kyk it. Although lyk it, don ever rain when i m planning to go out.

Read her blog again. Her life is getting more and more interesting. When continue reading, i came back to her september post. Something bout me n her. I have no idea whether i became more sentimental or wat, tears fall again. Haiz.. These two months my emotion is very shaky. Maybe is because of the exam, I don't know. I just hope we can find back the covalent bond (haha) we had before between the three of us and bind stronger than before.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

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for d past few days, one of my fren ask me to read another fren's blog.. at first i thought it will be some funny d text or pictures uploaded. Until today , i finally understand, the blog is an important one.

Actually, it made me feel sad when I read it. So this is what happening rite now. Something that I afraid will happen. At first I thought maybe it was just some my imagination. I have been thinking too much d but looks like, watever I felt before, it is correct.
I still remember it was the first time i cried so much for a fren. I myself also can't imagine that I will cry dat much .. haha... I gave her a promise. This is a promise for that time and for the rest of the time. I still remember that. How could I ever forget? I was the one praying that maybe she will change her mind and stay..

What brought us far away from each other? I think maybe is my jealousy. Everytime she showed me the photos with her new frenz, that feeling did appear. The life of her started to become fun even though without me... I did feel the changes when no more calls or sms out 'I am coming home' or 'I go back d la' .. everything that I know, is through him. Or maybe my jealousy is because of him too...

Another reason I suppose is she thinks that I don care anymore. I care about everything that we have been through.. I care our frenship.. I care that suddenly I am no longer someone she will think of when she is in trouble.. I care.. .....

I duno whether u will read this or not. I always tried my best to make sure that you are in d first place in d fren list and to make sure I am still lyk dat in yours. I know from what you said, my status is very shaky right now.. The promise never disappear.. never... maybe you are not feeling the same way as i am, but this is what i feel. Things change when distance keep us away.. I apologize if whatever I said or did made you feel uncomfortable.. The place for my best fren in my heart is always being occupied.... by you...