念旧

往事总是会时不时地出现在我脑海，让我一次又一次的想起。不管是开心的，难过得，生气的，感动的还是遗憾的。每一件事情都那么的刻骨铭心，抹不掉，毁不了。有人说我很念旧。念旧是好事，同时也是坏事。好, 就是以前的事情我都会记得，每样事情都有摆在心上。坏，就是把自己一直往这些往事里推，推得自己无路可走，无处可逃。

有时还真是佩服我自己。一些很小很小很小的细节，都可以记得清清楚楚。我记得和你第一天约会时穿什么衣服，记得是去哪里，做过什么，说过什么。记得第一次牵手是几时，哪里。记得每一次吵架是为了什么，最后又是如何和好。记得最后那天做了什么，说了什么。

后来很庆幸遇到了另一个，让我度过一段开心的日子。也一样，记得全部。我想有一些他应该也不记得了。现在也只是南柯一梦。两个人，我都不恨。两个人在内心也占了一席之地，重要的位置。

也因为念旧，还是想尽办法要让曾经的友情再巩固起来。试了又试，得到的答案让自己灰心了。现在想从新出发，不管能否再那么好，至少还有联络。是时候慢慢的在找回大家了。等我，很快就会轮到你。

有个好朋友，是不会记得以前的事情。很多都是我提起，她才想起的。有时候被我骗了还懵懵的。她的善忘偶尔也是件好事，不会让自己困在里面。不过她比我强多了，强悍的小丫头，还是幸幸福福的。

我觉得值得坚持的，我就会继续坚持，直到哪天不行了，再作打算。念旧终归是好事，我会一直保持下去。 毕竟想改也不可能，能做的是对自己好，不是吗?

an experience

I never thought that I will be in this kind of situation before. I always think I won't mind all these kind of things. I won't angry, I won't mind, I won't cry because of this. Maybe when I thought of this, it is still early. I don't have the experience before. Even though I met one, I still think that I wouldn't care so much. But apparently, I fail.

Should not have put in so much at the first place. Too confident until I kinda went too far. Thought that what I did will not be blamed. Then now only I know, it has already been a wound and already became a scar. What should I do? If I change then it won't be me, if not change, same thing will happen again.

Never have this feeling before. Don't know why the water level in my body like already increase. It has to keep flowing out. It is like a machine, click the button in the brain, then the water flows out. Already poured out half, and thought it will have enough space again but not enough yet.

The feeling came because never expected this is what I being thought of. Not supportive, not considerate, not believing in it, insulting. also being said that gave too much of pressure until talk and meet up also is a hard job.

What can we do now? Only can wait for time. See whether the time will have mercy on us and let it been forgotten as soon as possible. Be tough lo..

not all experience are memorable but some will, not only because of happy, but also because of sad and pain.......

三剑客重逢

3年前分道扬镳的三剑客， 在去年又在一次的分开，往更不一样的前程发展。每当其中一个放假，其他的一定是在忙。所以就算三个人都在同一个地方但没有办法相见。终于，他们终于有机会重逢了。这么久不见的三人，见面时应该会是怎样的呢？给彼此一个拥抱？还是告诉对方有多想他们？都没有。他们依然很潇洒的， 很帅的打了一个简单的招呼，“哈罗”

这三剑客的重逢可说是难得。已经好久好久都不曾这样子相约。三缺一的情况总是在发生。现在总算见面了。

因为生活环境不同，因此也认识了不同的人，某些人在他们生活有了一定的份量。可能因为是在困难中相识，在困难中彼此扶持，所以感情就会变得特别的深厚。 而感情是可以深厚到一个让人嫉妒的程度。三个人的感情会变，是因为当一个在辛苦，困难的时候，其两个都帮不了。也或许因为身边的朋友不一样了，可以拿来倾诉的人也变了，  其他人也可能不再变得那么重要. 也有要尝试隐瞒一些事，觉得没有必要让其他两个知道。其中一个发生了很多事，但却可以完全不跟其他的说，而且还想要继续的隐瞒下去。有时候回想，是真的感情变了，还是一直以来都不曾好好的去了解他。

三个好友见面，却需要想好好要说些什么，一些事情要用什么方式来表达。三个好久不曾一起出去的朋友，围坐在同一张桌子上，却可以一瞬间完全没有话题，静静地坐在那里，看着一群应该是刚毕业不久的女生开心的聊天， 自己却没想到要说什么。提起往事，大家都觉得津津乐道，想起以前多么的开心，疯狂，白痴，无聊。对于现在的事情却可以绝口不提。

当中的其中一个，一直是他们的桥梁。默默的很用力，很努力的拉着这友情。今年是他们认识的第十四年。十四年的友情是不是可以继续下去，，不能只靠他那么一个人。曾经有过诺言，以后谁先结婚，其他的就会是伴娘。应该不会到了结婚的那一天，也隐瞒吧？

三剑客

在很久很久以前，有三个好朋友。他们从小就互相认识， 并且建立了深厚的友情。一起学习，一起玩，一起闹。只要当中有一人难过，其余二人就会陪着一起难过。只要其中一人开心，其余的就会陪着一起疯狂的笑。

曾经有过第四个人尝试要加入，但是却始终没有办法融入。原因是这三个人的友谊，是用了很长的一段时间来建立，使攻不可破的。也因为认识太久，也只有他们才能明白对方到底在想什么。

到了少年时期，三人的感情依旧很好。虽然随着年龄的增长，彼此都会有不一样的意见，因此争吵是难免。不过隔天就会当着没事发生过一样，依旧嘻嘻哈哈。当时的一位恩师给他们取了个外号，叫做三剑客。因为只要看到其中一个，就可以确定其它两个一定在附近。三人的形影不离，正是这外号的出现的原因。除了形影不离，他们也可说是肝胆相照。如果有人被欺负，其他两个一定会站出来。

时间就这样过了差不多十年，他们是时候要为自己的将来作出最好的打算。终于，一个选择离乡背井，到了另一个城市。一个选择换新环境，离开了原本的地方。一个选择留守原地，在这个充满回忆的地方，继续自己的前程。分开前，大家在心中都给了彼此一个承诺。 “此情此谊不会因此而毁灭。不会因为不见面而磨灭。不会因为没联络而忘记。”

然而，情况往往没有想象中的完美。他们的感情，因为时间，因为距离，开始生疏。从差不多每天一封信，到一个星期，最后到了好久好久才一次。见面的次数，也随着大家不一样的生活，而慢慢减少。已经很长的一段时间，没有一起出来玩。每次总是三缺一。

到了这个时候，相信大家的心都明白，现在的感情已没有当初的热诚。是什么原因？到底是输给了什么？深厚的友情，输给了时间，输给了距离。还是因为三人对这段友情太过信任，而没有尽全力的去维持，还是其实心里都以为，其他人并不会去坚守这个承诺？

雨后就使天晴，希望这曾经感情超好的三剑客，会重拾当初的深厚友情。

A happy Sunday~~

Went out with her last Sunday. This is the very first time I went shopping , just with her after, erm, she left for matrix. Felt so good that day. At first, it did feel a little bit awkward. Maybe it was just me but the old times feeling came back in just a while.

We went to gurney plaza. Had our lunch at the Xuan Xin. The waiter looked a bit shocked when we only ordered a plate of noodles and a glass of drink, Milo Ice Blended. Haha.. The food was good but the drink was too 'thick'. Luckily got her to share, if not i tink i ll lose my voice for the next day.

At first, we just planned to walk around but eventually, we found out that without a movie, there is too much time left. We didn't know where to go next. So we went for 'The Tourist'. My god, Angelina Jolie is amazing. The way she walks, her body shape. Totally agree with wat cheryn said, "No wonder so many women scares their actor husbands to act with her.' Haha... Besides her, Johny Depp, my another favourite is very handsome too. Great match :)

Met up with W and P after that for dinner. Walk a very far distance to Coffee Island. My poor feet, the shoes causes my feet's skins to be peeled off.. Haiz... But luckily the food stil satisfying. If not, I might tear off it's shop.. Haha.. (juz kidding :P )

I had a fight with P last night b4 Sunday. Maybe the way I responded to him is quite hurting. So I purposely don wanna talk much with him. Well, not purposely, is duno how to talk. Now everything is fine. Happy to see him :)

It was a happy day. Suddenly feel like i miss her. Haha.. If she finds out, she will definitely gt goosebumps all over her. Haha.. but it is true. I do miss her. Hope to have this kind of shopping day with her again but she is a busy person now. Got other frenz to hang out. Last time there were only me and Jess. So there were no occasions that i ll missed. well, it is fine. as long as she is happy , den evrything ll b just fine. Oi, faster holiday la u, go kai kai agn .. hehe :P

This is my first blog in year 2011. Welcome~~

I start my 2011 in a great way. I went to Genting HIghlands for my new year countdown. This was the first time I ever had this kind of experience. And this was not a planned trip. We were having our buffet dinner and my dad suddenly came out wif this plan. It was really cool.. haha..That night was cold but yet the atmosphere was high.. Haha.. There were a lot of ppl there. I wonder where did all the ppl come from. Although we didn't have a chance to see the stage clearly n didn't rili shout together , it is stil fun. The only bad thing is no fireworks that night. It was raining softly that night. Oh well, have to wait til CNY den only gt fireworks.

my sis

My family had registered to become members of Tunku Abdul Rahman's Club in KL. SO during my birthday, they brought me to the restaurant there and celebrate. I bought myself a oreo cheesecake (well, not paid by me) and unfortunately, I only ate one small slice. I 4gt to bring some to the bus the next morning on my way back to Penang. Argh~~

By the way, the club is quite nice but i felt that there were not many ppl going there. Dont know whether it was late that time or what. And the food, erm, some were tasty, some were not. The carbonara there is tastier than what i had ate in Prangin Mall.

My oreo cheesse cake

My dad & I

My mom



Look at my bro's face. Haha..

Rainbow~~

I do not celebrate my birthday with my family every year. This year they make it special for me. Thanks to them for giving me a such happy memory. Love you guys~~ haha...

Wow, almost a year I have not add any new blog. Just don wan let it empty for the whole year, decided to write something today. Hehe..

One more week to go and my form 6 life is officially finish. I feel form6 is more 'siao' compared to the lower form.Not i mean that when in lower form has nothing memorable just dis 2 years r quite unexpected. Fun, crazy, 'sampat' ... i ll rmb every single on of them clearly, including those i never talk before. hehe

It's raining again. Like raining a lot. Although some people think raining means dull but i stil kyk it. Although lyk it, don ever rain when i m planning to go out.

Read her blog again. Her life is getting more and more interesting. When continue reading, i came back to her september post. Something bout me n her. I have no idea whether i became more sentimental or wat, tears fall again. Haiz.. These two months my emotion is very shaky. Maybe is because of the exam, I don't know. I just hope we can find back the covalent bond (haha) we had before between the three of us and bind stronger than before.